150 Gathering In
Commander Zhang sat in his chambers reviewing what had just happened. His brother, or half brother, he corrected himself, had come, not with cap in hand but a forward determination he recognised in himself. Instinctively, he reached for his drinking cup and poured another tea. What did this man really want? Friendship? He couldn't give him that. Alliance? Yes, that was possible. Recognition they were brothers? He recoiled from that thought. After all he had gone through, he wasn't about to let the bitterness, the hatred subside. That man had caused him to suffer all through his childhood and he wanted him to pay.
' I have informed the man he can rot in Shipao until the day he dies, he will not be allowed back on Chen land even in death, and there will be no place for him in the ancestral hall. He was lucid that day and his face showed horror at what he had done,'
He remembered Second Master's words and pondered. Who was to blame? Who was really to blame? The Man at Arms for not protecting his mother? The man who had defiled her on the verge of her wedding? His mother for concealing her pregnancy? For concealing the truth? The hand maid for her part in all of this? The beatings, the bullying which peppered his childhood clouded his judgement, he knew that. The only reason he sat here was because his adopted father never remarried nor did he sire any children. He was the only choice and however resentful the Zhang family was, they had to accept him, a bastard child born of an abandoned wife and a father, he spat that word out, who wanted for nothing. He conceeded, there was no one person to blame, they all carried equal weight, but the man who sired him, now he was the one, Commander Zhang could and would never forgive.
'For my other brother and myself we lost our mother within six weeks of our younger brother's birth. He has been beaten and whipped repeatedly as the scapegoat for our father's loss, so one could say, A'Hao has experienced similar to yourself. Like you, I had no mother, so there are parallels here which are both cruel and heartless.'
Please be informed the route originally agreed upon has had to be altered. We are travelling to the west of the main river, as there has been heavy fighting on the eastern side in Northern Shipao and although our troops have been deployed, it was felt safer to bring the prisoners a different way.
At the moment we are without Commander Chen. He has returned to Shipao and then on to Zhang province to return some Zhang men who had become caught up in our collection of prisoners. We do not know when he will return or by which route.
We will be reaching the narrows just above the main fork opposite Shuān Hé main town and settlement where we will carried out rope crossing in approximately eight days.
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